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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Wednesday, April 06, 2011
HI ALL, I AM NO LONGER USING BLOGSPOT AS I'VE SWITCHED TO LIVEJOURNAL. MY LIVEJOURNAL IS WWW.IDOREMINISCE.LIVEJOURNAL.COM :D
Friday, April 01, 2011
oh well.. here to do some proper posting before i start on nucleic acids self-review.
finally the last online review for nucleic acids (:
i had enough of the time-limit thingy.
but i know what's coming up next is going to be worst :(
with only 1 attempt WITH time limit AND GRADED.
i just hope that MC can help me with it (:
it's APRIL.
and final exams is from the 21st April - 4th May
i cant wait for it to end.
though i know my revision is really lagging a great deal.
especially MA1508.
but i know i'm going to put things right bit my bit.
that's what i learnt from my peers around me, to face it, and not avoid it.
because i'm afraid of maths, so i'm going to hold my maths textbook everywhere i go.
i'm lucky to have great friends around me, to guide and help me.
i learn lots of good studying attitudes, and i'm hoping to put that into practice.
of course, there are self-centred people around,
but i cant deny that there are many who are helpful and extremely nice too.
seriously,
if not for them to help me in my academics,
and to add some laughter to the mundane life i have,
i guess, i'll still be feeling like sem1.
today, i went to study at that bench again.
the one at E1-06.. and i felt a gush of mixed emotions.
cus that was the exact same spot where i spent most of my sem1 times, alone.
those 6 hours long breaks there, alone.
today, i sat there, it was still as windy,
and i can still see the port from my view, it still felt peaceful, with a tinge of sadness.
cus it reminded me of sem1. those loner times.
but it's different today, cus i'm not longer alone there.
i felt happier..
i felt that i belonged to somewhere.
i have my own clique of people whom i'll hang out with.
i have people who will remind me of deadlines,
who will help me print my notes,
who will lunch with me at arts,
dinner with me at clementi,
i'm no longer the same.
perhaps, i should have learn to let go faster and easier last sem.
and not cling onto memories so stubbornly, so perhaps, i'll be happier.
of course, letting go doesnt mean forgetting them.
there's a great difference.
they will always be great memories,
memories which i'll relive them every now and then,
but at the same time, i'll lead my current life.
school's mundane.
but at least i've something to look forward to, to work towards to, i'm not aimless.
i have a direction.
at least, i'm occupied with work everyday and days seems to brush pass me so quickly.
be optimistic cheryl (:
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
another blow. but i'll pick myself up. i will.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
and that has to happen, just before a test again.. seriously, sometimes...i really feel that it doesnt mean anything to u. as though, it's only me who is taking it seriously, and you dont seem to know how much all of these meant to me. though u said the otherwise, but i guess actions means louder than words. to you, i'm guess i'll never be that perfect one, or rather, i'll never even be anywhere near there. im with too many imperfections, just too many. even after yesterday, i guess the problems arent solved.. and yet, the issue was broached and brought up... sometimes, how i wish.. it seems as though you want things to be quickly over and done with. but i guess you'll never know how much courage i have to put in.. i feel indigent at times.. helpless most of the times. i guess it's not within my control.. and eventhough u said that u understand, but the things and tone that you used, it suggests the other way? i know, you can put things down and move on with ur life, like how you always do.. smiling with ur other friends and being normal. but then, if u are expecting me to do the same thing, then i think that you get me wrong. or u thought too highly of me. it's not that i dont want to broach that topic, it's just that i dare not. oh well.. time to study ur chem cheryl.. sighs.. and ma1508 is weighing heavily down still.
Friday, March 25, 2011
perhaps it's the lack of sleep,or the chemistry test next tuesday,
or my spoilt phone i.e. no more songs to accompany me as i'm studying
or the stupid lsm1401 online self review that i JUST passed,
or the fact of knowing that there'll be esp1104 lab next week,
or the fact that there are tonnes of tutorials that has to be done,
or my fear towards ma1508
i'm feeling angsty, irritated, moody and low.
hahs.
i'm worried for ma1508.
very.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
it's hard to stop myself from going on to facebook,and so, i've deactivated my account (:
but i'll be back on facebook on 4th may (:
here to cheer and motivate myself!
ma1508 is really something that is worrying me.. alot
i dont want it to be a repeat of eg1109,
a reminder of the horrid sem 1.. especially this mod is a core.
but no matter what, i'm much happier this sem,
cus i know that i'm not alone now..
(though i dont know how long we will last,
but i just hope that we will last for as long as we can..)
i tell myself not to think of the worst,
and to tell myself that things will be fine,
i told myself that i'll be able to faster put things right
as soon as i sense that it is going out of track..
anyway, thanks so much for all the help that you guys had volunteered,
and it seriously meant alot to us.
i feel so different from sem 1...
and i got greedy..
though i know that i should be contented with what i have now.
nevertheless,
jiayou cheryl (:
i know you can.
step by step.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
if what u said just now was true,that u really know me very well..
then u shldnt have asked me what happened.
it's been a long time since i last posted.
here to do some proper updates.
i guess within this period, alot of things happened bah.
and yeap, life is busy, as usual.
it's a good thing i guess,
to take things off my mind.
i'm just too slack though... and my grades are suffering.
get the correct mentality cheryl.
you know u can.
perhaps, i dont deserve ur trust.
but then, i just feel uneasy knowing that u are keeping things from me.
but u may be right though.