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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Thursday, February 01, 2007
alrights..very long time nvr post ler
i'm just getting very busy nowadays
with band, studies, remedials and all.
AP is quite fun actually, i guess i prefer to stuy in groups than individual
and i must say xueyi and cla are really fun to study with..
watever
had been feeling rather down these few days
with all my tests results and all
and the prob is, i really did study hard
but the tests are so difficult.
study so hard, yet the results dun show
its like so disappointing lar!
really felt like giving up at times
especially after taking the physics test
and all the other tests
for physics, i daresay i really studied HARD
real HARD
but then why WHY WHY i still cant get good grades for it?
no excuses this time, cus i really studied
den WHY?!
i really dun understand.
those tests are really so disappointing,
thrashing my confidence right down
wads the point?
i really dunno.
i hate secondary four school life
and YES
i feel the stress now
its like no matter how hard i strive,
the results just dun show
for the first time, I FEEL THE STRESS
I AM AFRAID
I AM STRESS
I AM DISAPPOINTED
I AM ANGRY
I AM EVERYTHING BUT SATISFIED
i really dunno how to get good grades
i really dunn...
its DEMORALISING, my grades.
life nvr STINKS that much.
band stuffs.
i'm really sorry for not being able to help much
especially the trainers
cant attend sectionals
i really wanna be there to guide u both
if i hav the chance
i know how it feels to hav nobody there to guide u
i'm sorry
but i promise, i'll try my best. its my promise.
but i guess u both are doing real fine
looking at u both conducting sectionals
i really feel glad for u both
standing infront,conducting
its never an easy job
but u both are doing fine
carry on like this,
i'm proud of u (:
for the sec twos,
i know i've neglected u all
nvr really work with u all in detail at loads of parts
always ask u all to hav individual
yet i dun hav the time to correct u all
yes, thats all excuses
time is not a factor
its my laziness..
landing the section in such a mess
i'm sorry.
but i'm trying to put things right now
i know my problem
and i'm correcting it.
i hope its not too late...
all of a sudden,
everything seems so hard to achieve
i wonder wad happen to the optimistic me just a week ago
that time, everytime seemed so fine
i felt i've been given another chance to prove myself in my studies
but just in a week's time,
everything changed.
everything had just been THRASHED.
its a goner.
well,
this post is just for me to air my views and VENT it out.
i'm not going to give up so easily.
i wun
just that i'm just very disappointed..
WHY IS EVERYTHING SO DIFFICULT TO ACHIEVE??