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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Thursday, March 01, 2007
yesyesyesfriday is nearing.
and i felt another week wasted
no longer find the intrinsic enjoyment frm within.
yet, i'm trying hard to get it back.
can u all imagine the kind of fear thats strikes within me every full band prac?
that kinda feeling when ur heart starts pumping a millions times more than normal before u enter the bandroom?
that kinda look when the conductor shot at u
and ur mood starts SINKING?
that kinda mood when u heard a super out of tune note when u cant seem to put it right?
that kinda mood when u see other section getting tutors when urs are NO WHERE TO BE SEEN?
watever.
i think i lost the focus.
seriously, i think i've lost it.
i know there are many things i hav to go and balance and focus on
yes, i know there is the concert which is THREE days away from now
yes, i know there is the SYF which is barely FOUR weeks from now
yes, i know there are homeworks which are due almost EVERYDAY
yes, i know there are tests which occurs EVERYDAY
yes, i know there are tuition which occurs TWICE weekly
yes, i know there are organ theory AND practical examinations which are cuming real SOON
yes, i know there are the organ ensemble competitions which are a few WEEKS later
yes, i know there's the O LEVELS approaching fast
yesyesyes
i know!
but which one comes first?
it seems as though EVERYBODY is telling me to put DIFFERENT things the topmost piority.
i'm losing focus
i no longer hav the sense of direction.
it seems as though i'm trying hard to manage EVERYTHING at the same time
ending up with NOTHING done well
NOTHING up to PERFECTION
and not even an AVERAGE.
today,
surprise GEOG test.
and its OUT OF THE TEXTBOOK.
and while i was tackling the paper, my tummy starts to hurt a hell lot
great yea?
just great.
dropping results.
NOTHING GOOD.
yes, my attitude is a disaster.
'wonderful week i had'