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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Friday, April 13, 2007
wasted the whole of today.i'm sorry abt it, but i cant help but feeling disorientated!
went home after school today.
and i really felt like tearing.
i miss band.
i miss band.
i miss band.
i miss band!!!!
i miss the feeling of working together.
i miss the feeling of working together with my section.
i miss the feeling of producing music tgt with the band.
i miss the feeling of being surrounded by my juniors.
i miss them a great deal.
emo.ed in the morning.
but was super high before morning assembly
together with shuyi, danhui, dewi, jessica, elena.
just when i was feeling so alone,
them came, and i felt much better instantly.
i miss band dreadfully.
band,
the special CCA that impacted me a great deal.
without a common goal,
i felt so lost,
as though i'm heading no where without a goal.
but shuyi and i made a promise,
that we will be closer even than before.
i sincerely hope so.
i'm much closer with band mates.
much much closer.
suddenly without them, without my JUNIORS,
i feel so lost.
i hate the feeling without a goal
i hate the feeling of being directionless
i hate the emo feeling that i'm feeling now.
i want to work studiously,
but wad is my goal?
i badly needed friends now.
argh.
but.
i'm gonna put things right.
i know myself perfectly,
i wun be able to study non-stop for a week without having a break.
so i'm gonna make sure that i have something for me to look forward to every week
it will spur me on to keep moving.
so peeps!
book me please (:
all rights reserved to BAND MATES (:
and my JUNIORS (:
i miss you all loads <33>
hope to go out soon!
real soon k?
anw,
all the best in studying for ur mids
put in the same effort for band,
and u will achieve the same good results.
(:
trust me (:
well,
i know i've made a decision today,
that may upset u.
but i'm in a clear mental state.
i know i'm emo today,
but rest assured that i've sort it through.
dun say u cant,
try to put in behind. u can.
and u must.
sorry for taking such a long time to realise.
i've tried to be tactful,
but i guess like wad u have said,
its difficult to be mended fully.
i wun avoid u,
cus its the silliest thing that one can ever do.
i'll face it,
and so must u.
i'm so happy for u today.
seriously,
cus u proved not only to me,
but to urself that u are capable of it.
smack all of those who ever looked down on u
u proved them all wrong.
and as always,
u have my support.
nothing will change,
the trust that was built will continue forever.
continue to confide.
continue to trust.
u'll be happy,
u'll be fine.
i know its hard to be mended,
or rather,
its almost impossible to be totally mended.
but i'm glad that i sorted it out,
i've told u,
and i hope u understand too.
get through this,
and it will be the last time u will need.
no more.
promised.
i've never regret in knowing u.
twohundredandsixtyonedays
i'm sorry.
i hate the feeling now.
but i guess, things will be better tmr.
ming tian hui geng hao (: