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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
when are all those negative thoughts and days ending?
today's E maths transformation test is such a disaster.
and to think i did studied.
what went wrong?
exactly what.
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those stress that people are giving me.
'cheryl u are improving'
yesyes, the more those comments are made,
the stress is felt greater each time.
as though i cant fail anymore
i must keep on climbing and climbing.
higher and higher each time.
i cant afford to fail?
is that it?
like one failure can bring me right down again.
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yea,
i'm improving?
like REAL.
now the more i want to do well,
the harder it seems.
like PHYSICS and BIOLOGY.
i can swear to hell that DID studied.
but does results show?
even for those who DINT studied did better than me
even for those who DINT studied did better than me
what does this goes to show AGAIN?
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the answer is quite obvious isnt it?
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today,
when i was on the way home.
i looked at those smses yesterday.
and some phrases came into my view
" there are no clever or stupid in this world, just how much u put in into ur studies"
"tomorrow is always a better day"
"it just takes one A1 test to push u all the way"
and suddenly,
i really feel much happier.
it may sound drama, or cliche, whatever u put it.
but suddenly i realised how true this phrases are.
thanks (:
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yes,
my destination doesnt ends here.
its a longer,tougher journey up ahead.
if i'm to fall here,
so easily,
wads more further down the road?
failures are just part and parcle of this journey.
something that will bring u further,
mould u to a tougher character.
thanks for all those encouragements.
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and to you who said those comments today
yes, it saddens me if u dont know.
yes, to me, studies is the most important thing now.
and fine if thats really what u think.
i dont care what u think of me, not anymore.
cus what u said today, its UNFORGIVABLE.
u shld have known better than to say that.
but dont bother to sms or apologise.
words said cant be taken back.
the damage is done
i just cant believe that its coming from u.
u may regret.
but what u have said today,
just proves that i did the right choice one month ago.
and one thing that i have to clarify.
its not hatred that i'm experiencing now.
its disappointment.
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whatever it is.
i'm concentrating on my studies now.
since i'm depicted like that.
i shall very well do so.
anyway,
sincere thanks to those who never give up on me.
coaching, advising.
u all just dont know what impact words have on me.
you too.