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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Saturday, March 01, 2008
even after so many 'inspirational talks' i have to say that i still get over that fact.
perhaps people like you out there will be pointing at me, laughing ur heads off.
but i have to say that, thats me.
thats how i think, i feel
i feel the lost.
moaning
( sometimes i rather keep things to myself
and i hope that my friends would be there to understand,
and not to probe when i'm not ready to tell.
true friends of mine understand.
my OG understands.
but not my CT,
they were probing and asking.
i shld give them a chance.
i know i cant be holding on to the past.
i know i need to proceed.
i know i know i know.
but i cant.
i cant
i cant. )
i still remember last friday,
how much my mood changed throughout the day.
in the morning, i was quite ok.
and PE, i told myself that i have to make as many friends as possible
and i was like super high.
but the moment i saw my OG tee,
my mood when right down.
physics lecture,
things were made worst.
(they were crazy)
i shall put it in this way ; i miss my OG.
i miss sitting with them,
i miss crapping with them,
i miss learning with them.
i miss seehiang,
i miss xiangyun,
i miss vanessa,
i miss shuemei,
i miss joey,
i miss chunfui,
i miss zhiyuan,
i miss zhengyi
i miss alll of them.
i miss sitting at my place.
not squashed right in the middle, right in front.
(xiangyun is proceeding, she is moving on.
i know i should be doing so too.
i shouldnt be hanging on, clinging on.
but though i'm happy for her,
i cant help but feel a little emo, depressed.
but i know i cant be that selfish,
i cant.
so i smiled at her when she rambled on.)
at break,
i went to the canteen,
and ate with seehiang, vanessa, peehole, zhiyuan and chunfui.
and i was super high.
all the way till econs.
and the care that they showered me when my stomach hurts.
was touched.
really touched.
tell me,
how shld i carry on this walk?