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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
its a happy morning :Dand i'm going for band practice later on, or rather, soon.
i'm starting to get the sweaty palms - dreading band thing again.
i guess most of my friends, or in fact, all of my friends wouldnt believe it.
they will be telling me, ' like real luh, since when a band freak doesnt like band'
i tell you the answer, ' everytime when there's syf '
i thought the moment i'm out of amkssband, things will be better
but then i realise today, now, at this moment, that everything's the same.
i guess i cannot get out of this mentality bah.
its not dreading band in a way that i hate/dislike band
but the fact of myself not being able to play
despite telling this fact to many people,
they will always dismiss it as 'cheryl is being too sensitive'
or 'cheryl is thinking too much'
no matter how much i emphasized that my playing sucks big time
no one ever treated me seriously.
so i came to a point whereby i just s.h.u.t.u.p.
no point telling people how badly i played when they don't treat it seriously.
i miss having concerts
and i regret letting my last concert just pass by without me treasuring it more.
i wouldnt have another chance to have a concert as a main band member
i miss performing.
though on the same stage, syf is nothing the same compared to a concert.
though many say syf is like a performance,
i just cant equate the two together.
oh well, holidays are always gone in a flash.
its already Wednesday.
almost half of my holidays are gone.
i've got to treasure it before its gone
and i'll be faced with never ending tests and homeworks.
i havent been checking litespeed, tsktsktsk.
shall go now.
cheryl, if you havent realised.
you're whining.
stop it.