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the girl next door  Cheryl Low ' Eighteen. ' Clarinetist. ' NYJCian ' 08th Nov '91 --- I love the life of performing arts alot and my life is all about Family and Friends --- please remember to tagg! (: |
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Thursday, May 28, 2009
i feel abandoned.i cant really believe how hard it can actually hit me.
till i was thinking of tmr's gp paper
who am i going to write as our tutor?
mr paul tan, it shall be.
i guess blogging shall be my way of venting things out once again
till i leave it to rot during the holidays.
i'm feeling down, yet again.
i hope there's a valid reason to my emoness nowadays
and i hope to dawn on that smile once again.
i've a horrid temper and terrible moodswings these days
and to my parents and friends who i've showed my temper to,
i apologise and i really dont mean it.
that friendless feeling and alone feeling didnt leave me
and cadbury choc seems to lose their special powers in making me happy.
when i'm with friends, i'm ok
when i'm at home with that pile of undone homework and aimless mind,
i'm not.
when i'm given extra moments to be alone, i'm not ok.
its been three days ever since my mood is really down.
and i'm really trying hard to make things alright once again.
perhaps mng being sick worsens my mood
and perhaps everything is just not right.
i cant believe i'm feeling so screwed up right now.
and nobody can believe that either
cause my classmates are just used to that crazy-high-mad cheryl
that they always see.
a singing, laughing, cheryl.
i guess they can never get to experience and to see
how emo cheryl can be.
they should see my secondary three self
every amksian i know can vouch for that.
i'm not an emo person since then,
its just a slipup and moodswing i'm having now right?
its tiring to console people and to give advices to people now
i need to apologise to those juniors and friends who need those
cause i really cant bring myself to remain positive as i console
not with the stinking moodswing i have within.
i need to get out of this screwed mood right now.