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Saturday, December 18, 2010
wanting to post something here.ever since i returned from shanghai, that mixed emotions did not leave me.
nah, it's not about the trip.
the trip was fun and nice, it was relaxing and the accompany was great.
it was the aftermath,
when i came back to spore, (not that i dont miss spore, i missed it a great deal)
and i went facebooking, blog hopping and i dont know why i experienced mixed emotions.
i have no either why i posted that comment on fb, and i deleted it minutes later.
deleting it doesnt mean that i dont feel that way anymore.
i told mng, and he said that i will regret, or rather, that feeling will pass soon.
but no... it persisted.
i'm afraid that it will keep persisting..
and then, i'll do something that i really may regret.
sighs.. perhaps, it's really not up to me to decide why they became like this
or rather, i'm the one who changed?
and i really shouldnt let myself be bugged with this particular problem.
because, i've got something really heavy weighing down on me...
it is just 2 days more.
2 more days to doomsday.
i know that my fate is sealed.
i know that crying buckets doesnt help.
i know i know i know.
but that doesnt stop me from worrying.
no matter how much i try to shake it off my mind,
it will somehow creep back into my mind, pestering me.
i just want to stand up again.
to face it all again
but can i just skip that day?
argh